03-02-2025, 02:41 PM
Ashton blinked at Nox. "You want me to make you feel things? But..."
Nox didn't really smile but he tried to ease the words a little. "I'm asking. You aren't forcing anything on me. That's all I want Ashton. I don't want you to force your family and friends on purpose. Just like I don't want live to hurt anyone, or Elyse, or Marta or even Mara. I just want everyone to make sure their powers are under their control. We don't want accidents. Accidents make it all worse for everyone, not just us."
Nox sighed. "And to be honest I was a bit unfair to you. I know it's hard. My best friend, feels like years ago but wasn't that long ago, she felt everything everyone felt all the time. I get that your ability isn't really under your control. I was angry, but not at you. And I took that anger out on you. I'm sorry."
Ashton blinked again. No one had ever apologized to him before. "You have every right to be angry at me. I kidnapped you with my voice. I put you in a cage. I made you willinging give yourself to us so we could butcher you alive and then heal you so our masters could eat. You have every right to be pissed at me."
Nox put his hand on Ashton's and smiled. It was real, he could see it hitting his eyes, but only for a bare breif second and then it was gone. "You did what you had to survive. I'm not angry at you. I'm not anything right now. But I wasn't ever angry at you. You were as much a victim as I was. Forced to do their bidding or you'd get eaten. That's a pretty big threat to me and I don't blame you. I'm more upset that you feel sad for their loss."
Ashton ducked his head but Nox squeezed his hands and he looked back up. "It's okay. They were your family, for good or evil. I love my father and he was an asshole to me most of my life. But I still love him."
Ashton smiled. "So what emotions do you want?" He changed the subject, there was a tear sliding down his cheek that Nox casually wiped away. Like a lover or a father might do to a child. Ashton wasn't exactly sure which it was for Nox. Maybe none, maybe it was just empathy he was trying to show when he felt nothing at all.
Nox didn't really smile but he tried to ease the words a little. "I'm asking. You aren't forcing anything on me. That's all I want Ashton. I don't want you to force your family and friends on purpose. Just like I don't want live to hurt anyone, or Elyse, or Marta or even Mara. I just want everyone to make sure their powers are under their control. We don't want accidents. Accidents make it all worse for everyone, not just us."
Nox sighed. "And to be honest I was a bit unfair to you. I know it's hard. My best friend, feels like years ago but wasn't that long ago, she felt everything everyone felt all the time. I get that your ability isn't really under your control. I was angry, but not at you. And I took that anger out on you. I'm sorry."
Ashton blinked again. No one had ever apologized to him before. "You have every right to be angry at me. I kidnapped you with my voice. I put you in a cage. I made you willinging give yourself to us so we could butcher you alive and then heal you so our masters could eat. You have every right to be pissed at me."
Nox put his hand on Ashton's and smiled. It was real, he could see it hitting his eyes, but only for a bare breif second and then it was gone. "You did what you had to survive. I'm not angry at you. I'm not anything right now. But I wasn't ever angry at you. You were as much a victim as I was. Forced to do their bidding or you'd get eaten. That's a pretty big threat to me and I don't blame you. I'm more upset that you feel sad for their loss."
Ashton ducked his head but Nox squeezed his hands and he looked back up. "It's okay. They were your family, for good or evil. I love my father and he was an asshole to me most of my life. But I still love him."
Ashton smiled. "So what emotions do you want?" He changed the subject, there was a tear sliding down his cheek that Nox casually wiped away. Like a lover or a father might do to a child. Ashton wasn't exactly sure which it was for Nox. Maybe none, maybe it was just empathy he was trying to show when he felt nothing at all.