Liv couldn't help but laugh, perhaps more embarressed than she expected. She was no prude, but...it wasn't something she had thought of in a long while. Sex and relationships were inextricably tied together in her mind. Something to avoid.
She realized how very empty she was. She had her family. And her friends were around. But she couldn't help but feel like a third wheel with them. Most had settled into relationships or routines- or had at least found something to do with life.
No. If she was truthful, she kept everyone at arms length- even her family. Shame. She just couldn't bring herself to be open.
Trapped. God she was trapped. She felt like in some ways, she was dying, suffocated by loneliness.
If a tree falls in the forest....except, no. That wasn't it.
If you live forever cut off from everyone, are you really alive?
She pushed the thought away.
Instead, she listened to what Ilesha was really saying. And she felt a wistfulness come over her. The smell of the freshly cut grass and the warm air made her pause. She looked around, the well kept grounds- its overwhelming living beauty only seeming to enhance that ache in her mind.
Her voice was quiet. "When you put it like that, I guess not. I feel jealous of you now." A lopsided smile burst out. "No! Not that way." She paused. "I guess I'd just like to find something like that for myself."
She realized how very empty she was. She had her family. And her friends were around. But she couldn't help but feel like a third wheel with them. Most had settled into relationships or routines- or had at least found something to do with life.
No. If she was truthful, she kept everyone at arms length- even her family. Shame. She just couldn't bring herself to be open.
Trapped. God she was trapped. She felt like in some ways, she was dying, suffocated by loneliness.
If a tree falls in the forest....except, no. That wasn't it.
If you live forever cut off from everyone, are you really alive?
She pushed the thought away.
Instead, she listened to what Ilesha was really saying. And she felt a wistfulness come over her. The smell of the freshly cut grass and the warm air made her pause. She looked around, the well kept grounds- its overwhelming living beauty only seeming to enhance that ache in her mind.
Her voice was quiet. "When you put it like that, I guess not. I feel jealous of you now." A lopsided smile burst out. "No! Not that way." She paused. "I guess I'd just like to find something like that for myself."