11-12-2014, 05:40 PM
Lucas listened was was reminded of his own father. Hadn't cared anything at all about him until he started embarrassing the family with his addiction. It was like he flipped a switch or something. Took no responsibility for his own actions, for the environment he'd created. The loneliness of childhood came back with a crash.
Lucas' heart beat faster as he got angrier. Then he realized he'd gripped the man's hand to tightly, was pressing down with the gun too hard. He looked up at the guy and apologized. "Sorry about that. Sometimes it's easy to lose control."
He meant it emotionally but he hoped the man would think he was referring to his grip on the gun.
He paused for a moment and took a deep breath, doing his silent prayer, trying to clear his head. For the first time in a while, he wanted a drink. He shoved the thought away violently but felt it lurking in the background, slithering, waiting. He focused on his work, hoping it would go away in time.
"So...trying to reconnect with a child huh? That the one you're trying to be 'hip' for?"
Edited by Lucas, Nov 13 2014, 05:34 PM.
Lucas' heart beat faster as he got angrier. Then he realized he'd gripped the man's hand to tightly, was pressing down with the gun too hard. He looked up at the guy and apologized. "Sorry about that. Sometimes it's easy to lose control."
He meant it emotionally but he hoped the man would think he was referring to his grip on the gun.
He paused for a moment and took a deep breath, doing his silent prayer, trying to clear his head. For the first time in a while, he wanted a drink. He shoved the thought away violently but felt it lurking in the background, slithering, waiting. He focused on his work, hoping it would go away in time.
"So...trying to reconnect with a child huh? That the one you're trying to be 'hip' for?"
Edited by Lucas, Nov 13 2014, 05:34 PM.