Nox cocked an eyebrow but that was the extent of his reaction other than to settle his placement in front of her, neither getting closer or moving away. Oriena was asking -- Oriena never asked if she didn't truly want the answer. And while her mother sat the other side of the closed door, he was pretty sure having sex right there and now might not be the best thing. But he wanted to closeness -- needed it. He closed his eyes and pressed his forehead against hers briefly before pulling back and sitting on his heels.
"You were right." He smirked she was right a lot. He didn't say about what. "Came to a realization about the non-existent future. Felt sorry for myself and took it out on Hayden. Who like you set boundaries from the get go. Except he crosses them in little ways that make me doubt everything." He sighed. That was enough to say what went wrong -- why he was here, but he didn't stop. The rest he said in hushed whisper -- not ashamed, but like it was a secret he didn't want to share with anyone -- not even himself. "I needed to be with someone who I wasn't chasing." Not that he wouldn't chase her. If she wanted that. But romance and tenderness were far from their thing. He'd come with the horde in hand because that's what she liked -- wanted. What she'd offered to help him feed.
He didn't want her to think he didn't appreciate her. He added a little bit louder. "Someone who wanted to be here." With me. He didn't add out loud.
Though he doubted his words, coming here without her consent, interrupting her life and now stuck in the same room after things he should never have seen. It could all disappear.
And the same defeated feeling flooded his body though there was no fury in it anymore. He'd fucked up his life. But it wasn't just that, he was pretty sure that Raffe never really wanted the same thing and it would have died some other way. He growled and moved back to sit on his ass and took up a lotus pose resting his hands palm up on his knees and taking slow deep breathes. "I won't make things worse. I'll keep my mouth fucking shut. But you know that's hard. I've been working on some Russian dishes for Jules... To endear myself to your mother after my talk of monsters."
"You were right." He smirked she was right a lot. He didn't say about what. "Came to a realization about the non-existent future. Felt sorry for myself and took it out on Hayden. Who like you set boundaries from the get go. Except he crosses them in little ways that make me doubt everything." He sighed. That was enough to say what went wrong -- why he was here, but he didn't stop. The rest he said in hushed whisper -- not ashamed, but like it was a secret he didn't want to share with anyone -- not even himself. "I needed to be with someone who I wasn't chasing." Not that he wouldn't chase her. If she wanted that. But romance and tenderness were far from their thing. He'd come with the horde in hand because that's what she liked -- wanted. What she'd offered to help him feed.
He didn't want her to think he didn't appreciate her. He added a little bit louder. "Someone who wanted to be here." With me. He didn't add out loud.
Though he doubted his words, coming here without her consent, interrupting her life and now stuck in the same room after things he should never have seen. It could all disappear.
And the same defeated feeling flooded his body though there was no fury in it anymore. He'd fucked up his life. But it wasn't just that, he was pretty sure that Raffe never really wanted the same thing and it would have died some other way. He growled and moved back to sit on his ass and took up a lotus pose resting his hands palm up on his knees and taking slow deep breathes. "I won't make things worse. I'll keep my mouth fucking shut. But you know that's hard. I've been working on some Russian dishes for Jules... To endear myself to your mother after my talk of monsters."
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