Yesterday, 10:58 PM
Nox nodded. Didn't explain much but it wasn't an unusual thing in the Red Light District. "Not sick I assume."
Nox sat down a few stairs in front of her and faced the ground floor. "You'd think feeling nothing would be great." Nox mused. "Not feeling the pain and sadness. Not feeling the guilt or fear." It had been glorious really. "But the one thing that you miss is the quiet first smile of your baby. The kiss of the man you love. You don't get to feel the good things either."
Nox looked back up the stairs at the strange woman crying on his front steps. "Ultimately it's about what's more important. For me, the good things out weighed the bad things I didn't want to feel. It's horrible going through those things again. It's hard as fuck, but it's worth it to feel that little smile when that little girl smiles at me or when I get a hug from very truama ridden kids. It's all worth the pain."
Nox stood up and smiled. "I need to eat, you hungry?"
Nox sat down a few stairs in front of her and faced the ground floor. "You'd think feeling nothing would be great." Nox mused. "Not feeling the pain and sadness. Not feeling the guilt or fear." It had been glorious really. "But the one thing that you miss is the quiet first smile of your baby. The kiss of the man you love. You don't get to feel the good things either."
Nox looked back up the stairs at the strange woman crying on his front steps. "Ultimately it's about what's more important. For me, the good things out weighed the bad things I didn't want to feel. It's horrible going through those things again. It's hard as fuck, but it's worth it to feel that little smile when that little girl smiles at me or when I get a hug from very truama ridden kids. It's all worth the pain."
Nox stood up and smiled. "I need to eat, you hungry?"
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