A Little Head Clearing

[Nox]

Nox laughed at Raffe's use of his own words. "It's not fair to use my words against me." Nox couldn't help the smile that stayed on his lips. "I can't tell you to fuck off. I'm having a hard enough time not telling you what I'd like you to do to me." He left it at that. Not that Raffe needed to now exactly the words, the intent was there, hell it had been there since they first met.

"Sex is easy to get. Never had a problem. But then my father showed me exactly how to get a girl, or had me show anyway. How to be nice and sweet and how to play the part they wanted. All part of him not having a son who liked boys."

Nox wanted to touch Raffe. He'd missed that about Aria. Aurora was a big comfort and after the plane crash they comfort was lost. First from the lack of presence and then the distance that they'd shared. He took most of the blame, but Aurora didn't try much either - happy to let him do his own thing. But he didn't want to talk that. And Aria's touch could be fear or calm or death. But she'd never hurt him - until she did.

There was so much to say and Nox didn't even know where to begin. "I wouldn't even know where to begin. My father was an ass, but I loved him till the day he died. Still want to make him proud even though he'd hate everything about me now. Sleeping with men is the least of my infractions. Being a fucking god and not taking my own life because of it. He'd hate that most."

Nox let out a long breath and looked at Raffe. "I don't want you to see my father the way I do. He was a good hunter. A great one. He loved his family." It wasn't a lie.

"What do they say about girls with Daddy issues? Stay away?" Nox laughed. "I'm an emotional fucking mess right now. Which sort means I really needs to sleep. It'll all look better in the morning." Nox pulled his pillow out from under Nova and the pup yipped and jumped to the floor.

Nox tugged his shirt off and tossed it on top of his bag. "I know it's asking a lot. But stay. My worlds gone to a shit basket and a half, and the comfort of another soul to keep me ground is good." Nox grinned playfully and made a serious face though he still sort kept the smirk and it wasn't so serious really "I promise on your honor, that I'll behave." Nox joked, "I have no honor." he said with a wink. Which was a complete lie - he knew that but he wanted Raffe to know nothing would happen unless Raffe wanted it to. And Nox just wanted to sleep in peace for once.