Nox nodded his agreement about Jaxen. The man probably had a mark on his head for making fun of Ascendancy. Nox added quickly "Though to be honest it doesn't take much to be on his shit list. No idea what I did to piss him off other than accompany another hunter to kill him. Funny was we weren't even trying. Aria was trying to find a way out of the order without betraying the Atharim. He hate me on sight, even though I never even lifted a finger." Course Nox was used to people hating him on sight. Or at least once they got to know him. But Ascendancy hadn't done that. Didn't matter he best left to avoid the man from now on.
He didn't go on about the Atharim, it was such a dour subject really. The whole holier than though attitude even from the American Atharim. His father wasn't a religious man but he was a zealot none-the-less. And now that Nox was seeing with broken rose-tinted glasses, it became all too clear. Raffe's pained laughed brought Nox out of his own thoughts. He frowned at the pain. "I wish I could help with that. Aurora could have. I don't need help, I'm sure the girls will have their own thoughts," Nox bit his bottom lip and leaned back against the wall and looked at Raffe through the corner of his eyes. "I enjoy the company though." He grinned. "And not for the obvious reason either, I want you to know. Living the way I lived my whole life left little time for friends. And now, anytime I settle down into some kind of new norm, my world blows up in my face. I don't want that to happen here." Nox didn't turn to look at Raffe but he did watch, "I very much want to kiss you and do all sorts of things I shouldn't, but I also want to sit here with you, and tell you how fucked up I am and how fucked up my life is and not be judged. Not looking for pity or advice just a friend."
Nox covered up his face with the palms of his hands and let out a long slow breath. "And I don't want to tell you all those things too. Fear it'll make you walk away. or use it against me. So many what ifs. So much to not know I ramble and don't shut up even though I should." Nox growled at himself in his own frustration.
Nox laughed. "Be a whole lot easier if it was just about sex."
He didn't go on about the Atharim, it was such a dour subject really. The whole holier than though attitude even from the American Atharim. His father wasn't a religious man but he was a zealot none-the-less. And now that Nox was seeing with broken rose-tinted glasses, it became all too clear. Raffe's pained laughed brought Nox out of his own thoughts. He frowned at the pain. "I wish I could help with that. Aurora could have. I don't need help, I'm sure the girls will have their own thoughts," Nox bit his bottom lip and leaned back against the wall and looked at Raffe through the corner of his eyes. "I enjoy the company though." He grinned. "And not for the obvious reason either, I want you to know. Living the way I lived my whole life left little time for friends. And now, anytime I settle down into some kind of new norm, my world blows up in my face. I don't want that to happen here." Nox didn't turn to look at Raffe but he did watch, "I very much want to kiss you and do all sorts of things I shouldn't, but I also want to sit here with you, and tell you how fucked up I am and how fucked up my life is and not be judged. Not looking for pity or advice just a friend."
Nox covered up his face with the palms of his hands and let out a long slow breath. "And I don't want to tell you all those things too. Fear it'll make you walk away. or use it against me. So many what ifs. So much to not know I ramble and don't shut up even though I should." Nox growled at himself in his own frustration.
Nox laughed. "Be a whole lot easier if it was just about sex."
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