Nightmares

[Calvin]

Calvin thought he understood her explanation. She was offering to help him forget the things that saddened him. He wasn't sure that was what he wanted. Forgetting would be so nice, but it felt wrong. Dawn Wind had died protecting him. It would dishonor the wolf to forget, and he couldn't forget Mary or Benji. The memories were all he had of them. It just didn't seem right.

He thought about her offer nonetheless. Scared to accept it and scared to not accept it. He felt a brush of hand on his cheek and moved his hand to touch hers as she did so. He gently pulled her hand away. He held it for a bit, the touch reminding him of those gone and then released Nimeda's heand.

"You want me to forget. Right? I thank you, but no. It doesn't feel right. Like I'd be dishonoring his sacrifice if I did."
Calvin shook his head in a negative as he said it. "I'm not alone in that struggle anymore. I'll figure it out with some guidance."
A brief smile came to his face as he thought of Jensen and Giovanni and their help before he went to sleep.

"His name was Dawn Wind. He was a good friend and teacher."
Calvin answered her question as he turned his attention back on the wolf. "If only I would have been a better student, he might still be here."
Calvin stroked the wolf's fur as he said it.